5 Habits in my Way to Success

After a recent mental breakdown because of my job I decided to take some time to think and not make any decisions. I had to regain control over my life; rediscover my passions, know what  love and what I wanted to do.

During this journey I did not discover my passion, but I discovered somethings way more important. I have discovered that it’s not my full-time job that is holding me back from knowing what I love and what I wanted to do. It is me; my habits.

Below are the habits and that have been holding me back and I am now on a new journey to replace them.

1. Whining!!

I have noticed that whenever I am talking with my best friend, work colleagues or even just to myself I am always always complaining about my job, how I am not following my dreams, how this job is slowing me down ,..etc. This has made me more miserable than I actually was, as my brain was only processing the bad parts of my life.

2. After Hours

Yes, I put a lot of hours in my job but I do make it a rule to leave at a reasonable hour every day, hence, I have time after hours. But how do I spend this time, you ask. Well, as a person making herself miserable I spend those hours trying to numb my brain through watching countless hours of TV.

3. Negative Self-talk

I have been literally my worst enemy and harshest judge. Always telling myself what I can’t do, what I have done wrong.

4. Listening too much

Not everyone will believe in you. And as Egyptians we LOOOve giving our opinions to everyone around us about their life choices. I listen way too much to every single opinion and focus on the negative parts and playing them over and over again in my head.

5. Losing Sight

I have stopped setting goals. I now go to work mindlessly do whatever comes to my mind that needs to be done with minimal focus all while scrolling down the different social media platforms on my phone and somewhere along the way this has become my way. I no longer have my ultimate goals in sight until I have actually forgotten about them.

So, basically this is what has happened to me since I was this ambitious fresh graduate. I am currently in the process to kicking those habits and replacing them with new ones. Will keep you posted.


To Start-up or Not to Start-up…

What would you choose; a job in a multinational or a start-up? Allow me to list the pros and cons of each maybe someone here can help me make a decision.



  • I am passionate about it and about the job I will be doing
  • I will have a big position
  • In a few years I can be a shareholder


  • It’s a start-up, it can fail



  • Guaranteed salary on time
  • Benefits
  • Prestige


  • I hate the job
  • The people
  • The environment
  • They can fire me for budgetary cuts just like they did with 250 of my colleagues a couple of months ago and replace me with a younger model who gets paid less

If you were me with the desperate need of money but still want to be happy, what would you do?

In the Cold Bathroom Stall

I finally let the warm tears stream down my face as I hid in the comfort of the closed door of the cold bathroom stall. It was comforting. It felt like the tiny space was holding me, keeping from completely breaking down. I am not the type of person to lose her cool. This was only the 2nd time in 2.5 years on this job. Yes, I said job. I have let a job I hate stress me out so much I had a nervous breakdown.

But why? Why do we let our jobs get to us? Hell, some even brag about how stressful their job is. The more stressful it gets the more awesome they feel; they feel more like they are doing something with their lives. Let me break it to you, you can do something that matters without losing your cool.

I mean if you think about it most of us who work under stress are working to achieve someone else’s dreams. I am working 45 hours a week doing something I never wanted to do because this one corporate managed to convince me and 8000 others that we are awesome just for working there and that everyone else wants to be us. I cried for working for a corporate which in 10 years won’t appreciate the years I put in and ask me nicely to leave because they want to reduce their budget and replace me with a younger model.

As I hid in the comfort of ┬áthe cold bathroom stall, I have made the decision to not waste anymore time of my life doing something I hate for a corporate that won’t appreciate it. From now on I am on the hunt for something that I love, something that matters to me and makes a difference. I will let go of the prestige and status for the sake of my own mental health.